The last couple of days I have been really tried and not feeling like myself. I didn't know why untill I spent sometime talking to God. He told me because I am doing to much, that I need to spend more time resting and not over do it. That I need to take some time for me and spend it with the Lord. That I need to look at my life and see where I am pushing God away. I have for last couple of days not really look to God for strength because I want to do it on my own, but I know that I can't do it on my own. That God is the one that will give me strenght to get through the days. Even with all the triedness I have been spending sometime diving into the word. I have not done that for along time, so it feels good to be spending time in the word. I have been reading the book of Job. I have read this book before but never really paid attention to the words. This time I really focused on what it is saying. It is so amazing who much faith Job has in the Lord. Even with all the stuff that happens. Like his sons and daughter getting killed, his aniamls dieing, and when he get really sick. He still has faith in God. That faith is so strong. What an amazing stroy. I am only on Chapter 4 but form what I have read it has encouraged me so much. I what my faith to be strong. I don't what to question God when things go wrong. I want to believe that it is for the strenghting of our faith and that is what it is. He allows thing to happen to strenghten our faith. To build us up.

On Wednesday nigth I was at worship team pratices, which now also our cell group. Karyn asked us all what does it look like to rest? What do you do when you rest in Lord? Then we got on the topic of spending quite time with the Lord. Being interment with him and she asked when do we spend time with God, and where? They were very good questions that I could not answer because I was not spending much time being with the Lord. I want to spend time with the Lord but I tend to get distracted. The question about spending time with the Lord really hit because I was not and God was convicting me of that. I always say that I want to have a relationship with the Lord but I don't work on making that relationship happen. In order to have a good relationship with the Lord you need to spend time with and just once a week but every day. Be with him 24/7. Be in the word, be in pray, be in worship with him. Spending time with the Lord is something I am going to do. Not just because I have to but because I want to have a stronger relationship with the Lord. Well I have said alot hear. There so much more to say but that will br my next blog.
Blessing to you all.