God is Amazing

These last couple of weeks have been really hard at home. Things have not been to good for awhile. I have been praying for things to get better and for awhile there where, but now this time I had enouhg of it. Last Saturaday come things want on at home that was so bad I am not even sure were to begin. So after all this went on, my sister and I spoke with the Capts from our church, Capt Dave and Lisa. We told them what happened and they said that they wanted to help, and asked what we wanted to do about this. So my sister and I told them that we wanted to move out because we both thought it was time and they said that sounds like a good thing to do. After we told them what we wanted to do Dave and Lisa told us that they were going to help us but they just needed to look into it. On Firday I recived an email form Capt Lisa and she had said that they found someone who was going help us find a place. I was so happy to hear this news because it is what God was telling me. So now on Wednesday I have a bunch of papers to fill out for all this to happen. There was one thing I was so worried about and that was the money because I am not working as much and I an not making as much money, so I didn't think it was going to work out, but God always has plans for things to work out. He is going to provide us with aa place to live, food, and anything eles we going to need. God is providing for us finacially and that is great, because I trying to go back to school in the fall so that I can get a good job in the future. God is so amazing because he is going to make this all happen. I don't need to worry so mcuh because is taking care of my sister and I. This is going to be a good expericens for us both. Living away from home. Learning to provide for ourselfs. I really believer that this what God wants because if it wasn't I wouldn't be doing this. I think that moving out is going to help me alot because then I am going to beable to have peace in my life and I am going to be able to spend more time with God. I will be able to have more pivitces in my own house then I do rightnow. I really believe that I am ready to do this. God has always been there and he will always be there. Even when things get tuff he is always going to be there to provide for us. I now feel a little bit of joy in my life and I can't wait till all this joy is in my life.
Praise God for all that he has done and for all that he is doing in our lives.
Praise Jesus he is so great.

Blessing to you all

Resting In The Lord

Yesterday at the Morning service at New West Karyn Baker preached about rest and it was so powerful because lately this is what God has been talking to me about. He wants me rest and nto rest by sleeping but by spending time in his word. Praising him, worshiping him, serving him. I want to spend sometime resting in the Lord but it is hard when you have alot going on in your life. For me I have been asking God what does it look like to rest in the Lord because I am not sure what it look likes. For me I find that I only turn to God when I really need him and that is not fair because I should be praising God all the time. God is everything to me and when I only pray to him when I need him that is not really wanting the lord in my life. We should be prasing the Lord 24/7. God really spoke to me when Karyn was preaching because he was saying that I need spend time with him. I need to be interamet with him. This was a powerful preach because it is all God has been talking to me about is resting in him. I am thinking of takeing some time off because I am to distracted by all the things around me that I am not spending enough time with the Lord.

Yesterday instead of going swimming with my friends I chose to serve God by going to the care home. I need to spend time with the Lord. Sometimes I find that I get to distracted by me friends that I don't worship God the way he wants me to. I need God so much and even with some of the stuff going on at home I need more then I have ever. I am can't do it with out him. I need to rest in him. I have been over working myself so much that I don't even not what God wants me to do rightnow. I have been so caught up in my life and what is going on that I have not given it to the Lord. I want him to take it all. All the hurts and all the pain. Last night at The Hill I was trying to worship God but then it just turned into me wanting to have fun and not really sing to the Lord. It was hard to sing to him because of the stuff I am dealing with. Sometimes I belm God for all the stuff that goes wrong in my life. I know deep down that it all happens for a reason. I just don't want to believe it. I need to turn to God. For he will help through this all. Even if I don't want to believe it.

Can you pray that God wil help me and that my faith will grow stronger as I deal with this stuff at home. That he will help me to deal with the hurt and pain in my life. Also that God will show me what I am to do.

Blessing to you all

The last couple of days I have been really tried and not feeling like myself. I didn't know why untill I spent sometime talking to God. He told me because I am doing to much, that I need to spend more time resting and not over do it. That I need to take some time for me and spend it with the Lord. That I need to look at my life and see where I am pushing God away. I have for last couple of days not really look to God for strength because I want to do it on my own, but I know that I can't do it on my own. That God is the one that will give me strenght to get through the days. Even with all the triedness I have been spending sometime diving into the word. I have not done that for along time, so it feels good to be spending time in the word. I have been reading the book of Job. I have read this book before but never really paid attention to the words. This time I really focused on what it is saying. It is so amazing who much faith Job has in the Lord. Even with all the stuff that happens. Like his sons and daughter getting killed, his aniamls dieing, and when he get really sick. He still has faith in God. That faith is so strong. What an amazing stroy. I am only on Chapter 4 but form what I have read it has encouraged me so much. I what my faith to be strong. I don't what to question God when things go wrong. I want to believe that it is for the strenghting of our faith and that is what it is. He allows thing to happen to strenghten our faith. To build us up.

On Wednesday nigth I was at worship team pratices, which now also our cell group. Karyn asked us all what does it look like to rest? What do you do when you rest in Lord? Then we got on the topic of spending quite time with the Lord. Being interment with him and she asked when do we spend time with God, and where? They were very good questions that I could not answer because I was not spending much time being with the Lord. I want to spend time with the Lord but I tend to get distracted. The question about spending time with the Lord really hit because I was not and God was convicting me of that. I always say that I want to have a relationship with the Lord but I don't work on making that relationship happen. In order to have a good relationship with the Lord you need to spend time with and just once a week but every day. Be with him 24/7. Be in the word, be in pray, be in worship with him. Spending time with the Lord is something I am going to do. Not just because I have to but because I want to have a stronger relationship with the Lord. Well I have said alot hear. There so much more to say but that will br my next blog.
Blessing to you all.

What are your fears in life

This week I have been thinking alot about what I am afraid. I never take the time to look at my fears. But Last night at Refuge Kelly talked about fear and that really hit me because that has been something I have been struggling with. It was a good night because alot of people opened up and some of the things there were afraid of. That was great because then we got to pray for them. At the end of the night we were told to go and write down all of your fears and are burredens. It was hard for me because there still a few thing I fear.Then we were went if were ready to give all our fears to God. We put them in a basket and give them to God. For me one of my biggest fears is not having an relationship with God. I fear losing that relationship. I need this relationship becasue it is the only relationship that get me through the day. Knowing that God is there watching over me and protecting me is what helps me live.

I was reading a blog that Karyn Baker wrote and it talks about light and darkness. This is also one of my fears is walking in the darkness and not living in the light. I don't want to be in the dark because it scares me to death. I am afraid of seeing Satan. Somethign I think there is alot of darkness because I choes not to live in the light. The light is what will help me. The light is God and that is what I want to live in the light and not in the darkness.

This week was a long week . I spent it being at home sick as a dog. There was some good things about it and some bad things about it. Well the bad thing about being sick for ten days and not leaving the house, you start to forget all the things around you. You start to feel bad that you had to miss church, but I know that God wanted me to stay home a get better. I feel that I should have been spending this time reading my bible and spending time with God but I chosse not to and I feel bad.I want to have a good relationship with God but I can't except to sit on my but and do nothing to have that relationship. It takes work and that was something I miss out on this week. I miss two weeks of work which sucks also I missed my friends. I haven't seen them in almost two weeks and I really miss them. I had to listen to my mother yell at me sware at me and it hurts because I didn't do anything but I took all the yelling because I thought that was what God wanted me to. The good thing about being sick and staying home was that I got to sleep in till noon every day and that was great. That was something I needed really bad.
I read a really good blog that Karyn Baker wrote. It is about the light and how there are times that instead of listening to God we tend to do other things. We tend to let other things get in the way of our relationship with God. She wrote something about when we don't take time to listen to God or sit at his feet it is like we are living in the darkness. That is scary living in the dark. Living in the dark is like being alone in the world and today that is what alot of poeple are doing. They are living in the darkness of the world. I just wish that they would see the light that is infront of them. That light is God he is shining his light on us so that we can walk in his path. Sometimes when I am not working on my relationship with God I feel like I am in the dark because I can't seem to find my way. What a great blog it really got me thinking of my life and the way I live. I want to be in the light as you are in the light. I want to shine like stars in the heavens. That is a great song because it is so true. I want people to know that I am living for God, that my life belongs to him. Everything I do I want it to be for him. God is the one who saved me. My pray is that we will all look at our lives and see were we walking in the dark and turn to God.

BACK FROM CAMP

Well I am back from Teen Camp. It was a great time. I learnt lots from God. God spoke to me through different things. One night it was through muisc then it was through the word. God speaks in many different ways. I am so blessed to have meet the greatest girls every. They mean ever thing to me and I am so happy that I was able to share my testimony with then and not have them look at me different. One thing that suck is that I am really sick rightnow. I came back from not feeling to great and I don't know why. I must have gotten something from someone. I went to the Doctors and he put me on medicien. I know that is not that great because it is making me feeling really weak. I am not able to focus rightnow on anything. I hope that God will heal me. Well I have to go.
God Bless

TEEN CAMP

This week I had the privilage of going to Teen Camp as a leader. It was great I got to meet lots of people. The girls in my cabin were great I got the chance to get to know them. I even got to know the girls that I brought up. I got to pray with them and chat with them. I got to comfort them when they needed me. This was a great oppourtiant for because I was able to witness to these girls. We had devotions ever night and the group I had was awsome. I was able to encourage them. One of the girls that was in my devotions group had told me that she had decided to give her life to Christ and to really focus on what he wants her to do. She told me this and I almost crid because I didn't think I had gotten to these girls. I saw a great change in all the girls even in the New West Group. I am so proud of them all. We were one great family that is going to keep in touch and do some group thing. I was so greatful to have this chance to really get to know them all. I also got the chance to get know the War College. They are great people. It is because of God that I was able to really open up to them. I was scared at first because I didn't know what they would think. I shared my testimony with my devotion group and I am happy that I did because one of my girls shared something that I never thoutgh would happen. So that night was all about testimonies and encouragement. We used our testimony to encourage each other. Something amazing happen to. One of the boys we brought up gave his life to Christ and that was great. We are now going to have two new memebers in Refuge and I am excite for them. They are great kids and are wanting to learn so much about the Lord. These week was something great for me beacuse I was able to experines the joy of knew Christians. I cried and cried becaues it was great to see all the people go up to the alter.
What a great week it was. The kids were great they did as they were told. So on the last night Crastyl Meyers and I take some of the kids to the beach and watched the Sunset. It was good. We pulled an allnighter to spend time with the kids.
God works in great ways and I can't wait to go back next year to a leader.
God Bless

DAY AT THE BEACH

HAPPY CANADA DAY
What a day it was laying at the beach with Robyn and my sister. It was has really hot and fun. The water was nice and cold but beautiful. Just laying there looking at the view was awesome. There was not cloud in the sky and taning was great. We were planning on going to the fire works but then realized that it was going to get really busy and it was going to take forever to get home. Which would not be to fun because I am leaving to go to Teen Camp. I need all the sleep I can get. This week is going to so much fun. The wheather is going to be very hot so we will all come back with sweet tan. Ha ha ha Karyn Baker. Don't you wish were going. There will be alot of people coming up. Which means the times we eat are going to be off.
Have a great week se you all next week.
God Bless.