Walking Through Struggles

These last couple of weeks have been a really big struggle for me. I have trying to run away from stuff that God in putting infront of me for a reason. I find that right now as I have to deal with some family stuff that I just want it all to be done with but it won't happen that fast. I have to contiune to stay close to Jesus and not to give up on what I believe. Some of the stuff has been really hard for me because I have been really sick and the doctors don't know what's going on. So as I deal with being really sick, I have to also deal with the though things that are infront of me instead of running from them. God wants to help me and he will never give me more then I can handle. Lats night I was reading a bit of the word. I read from John the first chapter. It's all about the light and that light is God. Without God there is no light. So then we would all be walking in the dark. This chapter really spoke to me because Jesus was telling me that I need to be in the light. I need to be in the word, not put it off. He wants to show me new things but I have to be willing to follow him.
As I contiune to walk through these struggles I know that God will take care of me. He will heal me so that I won't be sick anymore. I will grow stronger in all this. I pray that God will give me his strength to get through this all because I know that I am to weak to do this all on my own. I need Jesus. He will deliever me from all the bad stuff. He will walk with me through the tuff times. I want to be able to stay close to Jesus and not run away from whats going on in my life.
As I write all this I am reminded of the story from Luke 10. Martha and Mary. I want to be Mary. I want to sit at Jesus's feet. I just don't know who to do that. I guess I have to look to God for the answer. I don't want to be all coot up in serving and then be distracted by it all. I want to be interment with Jesus. I pray that God will show me all that and that he will help me through the family stuff.
God Bless