Living For Jesus

As I look at my life and the way I have been living it. I am questioning if I am really my life the way I am suppose to or am I wanting to believe that I am. I know that saying you are living for Jesus and not really living out the Christian life are two different things and I think that I have been doing that alot this week . I say that I want to live for God but my words and actions spaek differently. I look at my life and I see what I am doing wrong with it. It is that I am not really living for Jesus. I keep saying that I love God and I want to live for him. That my life belongs to him. Rightnow as I think about it I am not being true to God or myself and it hurts, because I am hurting God. I really want to live for Jesus I just need to not be afriad to show it. I need to strat reading my bible and really worshipping him, because he deservse it. God created me and everything around me. If it wasn't for him I would'n be where today.
Satan has been really trying to draw me away from God by putting lies in my head. Saying that God will not help you and that you are all alone. That I have to deal with everything by myself. To me that is scary because I don't think I would be able to do it on my own. I am to weak. I need God's strength to get through all this. With out God I am incomplete. Which brings me to this song that I have written. I am goiing to most likely share it on Sunday night. It takes about being in the dark and not knowing where to go in life. I find that I keep searching for God and when I can't find him I fall apart. I need God. I need to worship him. I love to worship him. I will worship him in everything I do.I realize that I can't live without God. He is my life. Without him I don't exists. I am going to keep praying that God will be my strength. That through him I can doing anything. If you are reading this I ask that you pray for me. That I will not give into Satan's temptations. That I will be strong enough to fight him.