LIVING FOR JESUS

This week has been really hard for me. I have been dealing with alot of tuff stuff at home. The Devil has been working in my house hold for along time and I am scared. I don't feel safe at home because I am afraid of the Devil and I don't want him to win. I have been doing my best to live for Jesus but sometimes I let Satan get into my mind and then I give up on living for Jesus. I really want to be stronger and have the Devil be gone from my house but I don't know what to do. I have been praying alot more because I really want thing to get better at home. The more I pray the more I feel like things are getting worse. I just want to live for Jesus and not have to be scared of what will happen to me. I haven't slept much in the last few months. I so tried and so sick that I can't sleep. I haven't really been eating much. I guess it because of all the stress. I was getting help with the things at home but then this one person is no longer invovled because I haven't spoken to her in two months. I guess she doesn't want to be apart of this anymore and that is okay. I am trying to talk to my mom about go to get some help. Micheal Collions is willing to help me. He is not going to give up. He wants to do what ever it takes to fix this. I praise God ever day for all the great people he has placed into my life.
Even with all this going on I am still Living for Jesus. He is my everything. This last week a friend and I have been working on this song that I have written. It talks about searching for God because I am looking for God to show me what he wants. So even in the hardest of times always remember that you are living because of Jesus. That is what I have learnt from all of this. I would have to say that it is a good lesson for me. With all the hard times comes healing.
God Bless You All

Singing For God

On Saturday a group of us got together and did an open air which is like chruch out side. This was one of your mission at RAW and this was a mission that we wanted to bring back to New West so we did. So on Saturaday myself and the Raw group went to Moody Park and did a little church service there. We did worship which Cory did. There was sharing of Testimonies and reading of Scriptures. It was so much fun because there were people watching us and one person was very intertes in what was going on. For me this was a big stepping out of my comfort zone. I though it was going to be hard for me but it wasn't. I really enjoyed myself and seeing the changes in all of us has been really great. God has big plans for all of us.

Then on Sunday after church a group of us went to Tim's to hang out. We are all about the fellowshipping with each ohter. After Tim's we all went over to Ashley Mayer's house. As we were walking to house we went throuhg the park and we were really happy so we started singing worship songs and we didn't care what people thought of us we were having to much fun. Then this one laide walk by and she said Hallijua that was great. Just the excitment that was in all of us. This was something that I never saw myself doing but I did and it was great.

Then today I got to spend time in the sun. I went to Moody Park with a friend to hang out. What a beautifull day. We sat in the sun and got sun tans. Looking at all the trees and know that God created all that is around us was such a great picture. God was done so much for me and sometimes I don't give the credit for my life. But I wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for God. My life belongs to God. I am his daughter and I can't wait to see him.

Well Blessing to you all

Spiritual Gift Test

Last night after having a really crapy day I came home from youth and decide to do a spiritual gift test. I know I had done one at youth counciles but this time I really answered the qusetions from my heart. I was really suprised with what I got this time because last time I really didn't think that is was me. I got really high points on four of them and I would like to share them with you. Well here they are.

Giving- The ability to give your time and money so that it can be used for God's work.
Pastoring- The ability to effectively guide and care for people in their walk with God.
Leading- The ability to motivate others to use their spiritual gifts and to do their best for the
work of the Lord.
Faith- The ability to have a confident belief that God will always do what is the very best.

As I look at these gifts and really think about them, I find it very intertesing that Leading woulkd be one of my gifts because awhile back I had talk to Karyn about leadership and that God was calling me to be in leadership. Now that I think about it more being in leadership is what God really wants. All these gifts that God has giving me is the right ones. These are the gifts that God wants me to use and I need to step up and do that. I want to please him. For those of you who read my blogs can you pray that God will contiue to show me how to use these gift for his glory and not for mine. I really am so excited to know what my gifts are and what God wants me to do with them.
God Bless

Silence and Solitude

Last night at Refuge we talked alot about being silence and listening to God. Listening to what he has to say to us. At the beginning of Refuge everyone one was talking and it took along time to start the night which that normal doesn't happen. So this was a good lesson for alot of us becuase it involved us being quite and having to listen and answer questions. There were alot of questions that we were given and they were really good ones. They made me really think of my life and my relationship with God. The questions that were asked are.
-Do you have a hard time being quite?
-What are the noises in your life?
-Do you have the power to remove the noises?
-Do you have the power to controll the noises?
-Do you have the power to minamizs the noises?
-Do you have time in your day to be silent with God?
-Is it possible that God speraks to you all the time?
-When you are troubled with things who do you go to? God or Others
-What is the longest time you spent in silents?
-Are you afraid of being alone with God?

These really spoke to me because in my day day time I don't make time to listen to God or to be in slience with God. I left last night really thinking of my life and what I tend to do on my spare time and not once could I think of my time being with God in silence. I think that really suck because I want to spend every moment with God. Here are some scriptures that we all read last night.
-Deuteronomy27:9
-Psalm4:4
-Habakkuk2:20
-Matthew11:28
-Psalm46:10
-1Kings19:9-13

What a good lesson this was for me. I really learnt alot of this and I am ready to what God wants me to do. I will listen to him and be silent with him.
God Bless

BIRTHDAYS

Last night was a great night at Refuge. It was a good message from God that I need to spend more time with him. Yesterday I turned 21 and I got to celebrate my birthday with friends and family that I love so much. I got to spend my birthday at Refuge. They got me flowers and a card that was great even though I was not expecting anything I was so blessed to have found such great friend that care so much about me that they would all do that. Than at the end of Refuge we had cake I got to share it with the Men and Ladies group they all joined to celebrate with me. What better way to be spending your Birthday with People that you love and care about. I couldn't ask for a better gift then being able to spend it with you all. Even though I got gifts for thoes who didn't know it was my Birthday I don't need you to get me anything because hanging with all you and celebrating my birthday with you all was the best gift ever. I will alway remember this day. The cake was so good it was Ice Cream cake which is my favouirt of all times. Thank you all for being apart of last night. It really made my day so much better being with you all. What a blessing God has given me, to have so many people that love and care about me. That joy and happeness that I felt last night is still in me because I never really took time to see how much we all care and love each other. Refuge is the best place to be. We all have changed so much in the last couple of months and I am so happy to be apart of this group. Maybe in the near future God will place me there as a leader to you all. I have to pray more about it and see if that is what God wants for me. I thank God for all the great people he put into my life. I love you all so much. Thanks for being so good friends.
God Bless

Great Night Of Worship

These last few days have been filled of worship for me. I have been going to alot of worship services this week. Which was really great for me because I was able to really see God and hear what he is saying to me. Last night I was at the Hill for the evening service and they played this song that really spoke to me because it has to do with God being with you where ever you go in life. The song is called Where I am written by Karyn Baker. I am not sure if I am missing some verses so if I am place let me know. Here the song.
I am your servent
Where you send me is where my heart longs to be
If you ask me to walk through fire
It's my prayer that my respones will always be:

Where ever I am there you are
Where ever I am there you are
What ever you ask of me I'm satified to say
Where ever I am there you are

I am your servent
Where you send me is where my heart longs to be
If you ask me to walk through fire
It's my prayer that my respones will always be:

Where ever I am there you are
Where ever I am there you are
What ever you ask of me I'm Humble just to say
Where ever I am there you are

Jesus loves me this I know
For the Bible tells me so
Little ones who him below
They are weak but he his strong

Yes Jesus Loves me
Yes Jesus Loves me
Yes Jesus Loves me
The Bible tells me so

Last night this song really spoke to me so strongly becaues in the last couple of days there is this image that keeps coming into my head and it. I am standing in the middle of a room and God is there with me. He is clothing me with his Armor and says GO GO GO. I have been praying for God to reveil to me what that means but he has not shown me. God is calling me to go somewhere but I really don't know where it is. So when I heard that song last night all I could think about was that know matter where I am God will always be there. What ever the situation is God will be there. Where ever I am in life God will be there with me. This song is so powerful because if you look at the words it say I am your servent, Where you send me is where my heatr longs to be. So where ever God wants to send me is where my heart longs to be. I am going to contiune to pray that God will show me what that image means because I want to go where he wants me to be. God is really wanting to use me but I am scared that I am not be ready for what he wants. If you read this I am asking that you pray that I will be reday for the things God is calling me to do and where he is calling me to be also that God will give me a clearer picture of where he wants me to go.
God Bless

Late Night Out With Good Friends

Yesterday I had gotten the day off of work because I had worked almost all week so they gave me the rest of the week off, which was great.I got to spend some time with my mom and sister. Then I went downtown to a worship service with the war college students. It was alot of fun because I had the chance to hang out with my friends that I haven't hung out with in awhile. After the worship service a group of us with out dancing and that was fun. I had the chance to be in followship with my friends and really have the chance to be my self. There is nothing better than having a night out with your friends. I was able to really feel like I was apart of that group of friends. The dancing was alot of fun even though I am not the greatest dancer. I still went out and had a blast. I never though I would have had that much fun.
For those of you that don't in the last couple of weeks I have been going through some spirital stuff. God has been talking to me about somethings he wants me to do but I don't know if I am ready to step out and win the world for Jesus.After attending RAW over the spring break God has been reveiling things to me that he wants me to take part in. I don't want to let God down but I really don't know if I am ready to take these big steps. All this could mean me having to change my life around and not live the way I am right now. I find it funny that God is calling me to do this stuff because I have not always been the greatest christian. I have messed up alot but God has always forgiven me.
With all this going on I have not really been myself. I have not been sleeping or eating because I am so confused, I don't know what to do. I want my life to be on the right track but I also don't want to disapoint God if I mess up.So last night was something I really needed , just that chance to hang out with my friends which are christians to. Having that time away from what is going through my mind helped me to see a picture of what God is wanting to happen in my life. I hope that all this will change who I am today and that I will be able to have a stronger relationship with God. I love seeing and hearing what God wants to say to me or show me. I can't wait to see what is going to happen next.
Bye For Now
God Bless

HOLINESS

Tuesday night at Refuge we talked about holiness and what is hoilness. We talked about God's holiness and were given some really good scripture. The scripture are.
-Exdous 15:11
-Psalm 29:2
-Psalm 96:9
-Leviticus 20:7-8;26
-Revelation 4:8
We also talked about our holiness which was really good. We talked alot about idols. We are called to be holy people. We have grace through Jesus, however we must be in a state of repentance. With forgiveness we are cleaned and made new. Anything can be an idol or a god. Alot of the time we tend to place other things before God and that should never be because God should always be first in our lives. We are the clay in the potters hand which is God. God is shaping us to be more like him.
Here are some really good questions to ask yourself.
What is keping you from God?
What is keping you from becoming holy?
At the end of the night we all placed our idols on a flower pot and asked God to forgive us for all the things we placed above him. After writting our idols on the potts we broke the pot so then our idols would no longer exist in our lives. What a great night it was because I never really realized that I was doing that placeing other things above God. He treally spoke to me and told me that these things were keeping me from him. I asked God for his forgiveness and he gave it to me.
Some really good scriptures on our holiness are.
-Romans 6:19,2
-Romans 12:1
-2Corthians 7:1
-Ephesians 4:22-24
-Hebrews 12:10
-Hebrews 12:14
-1Peter 1:15-16
-2Peter 3:11
All this stuff really good things to think about. Ask God were in your life have you been placeing others above God because he will tell you. He wants to have a great relationship with you. He want to be the only thing in your life. So let him.
God Bless You All

Pressing On Towards The Goal

On Tuesday nights I attend a youth group at New West called Refuge. Which means a safe place to come and worship God. The Pastor there was Karyn Baker but now we are getting and new pastor. Anyways we had talked about Pressing On Towards The Goal, which is from Philippians 3:12-16. This preach was really great because we talked about Hoilness and what it looks like to be holy. There were alot of questions that really spoke to me and I want to share them with you all.
1- Where am I ?
2- Where am I going?
3- How am I going to get there?
When I think of these questions I think of my faith and where I am right now with my relationship with God. Where does he wnat me to go. I can feel God calling me to go but I don't really know where he wants me to go rightnow.
4-What do you believe?
5-How strong is your faith?
6-What is keeping you from doing what God is asking?
These are all good qusetions to think about. I have been asking God these questions because I really want to know what God want me to do. All these questions get me thinking baout my individual walk with Jesus. What does that look like for me. As of right now I am not sure. I am in the middle of looking for a new job. Which that could mean me leaving and going somewhere differnet. I really don't know where God is calling me.
Here are some really good scriptures to look at.
Philippians 3:12-16
1Peter 1:13-16
1Timothy 4:12
Galations 5:7-10
Well that is all I have to say for now. For those fo you who read my blog just pray that God will show me what I am to do and also that God will take care of Refuge and bring someone to us.
Love you all.
Bye for now
God Bless