Worship And What It Looks LIke

Well this is another blog about my weekend at youth Together and that is because that weekend changed me so much. God really spoke to me and alot of it hurt because it was the truth. God was speaking to me about my way of worship and how it wasn't pleaseing him. When I would sing it would'n be from my heart. I would just sing because I felt like it and that is not what God wants. God wants our worship to be from our hearts because he desver so much. He sent his son to die on the cross for my sins and saved me from a drug and acholo addiction. God has been good at telling me whenI am not doing what he wants. I sometimes don't listen to him but that is something I am trying to do better. So when I was at Youth Together God really spoke to me about Worship and Pray. God wants me to worship him from my heart and to keep praying to him because he wants to take care of me. I am trying to worship God with all I have but right now because I am spiritual tried and I don't have the enengy to do it. Worship is all about giving thing up to be with the Lord I that because God has asked me to give so stuff up and I am still trying to that. Worship neededs to come from the heart because that is were God is. worshipping the Lord is great. I love to worship God when there is no one around because then I have the time to talk to God and to have intamcy with him. God spoek to me alot at Youth Together because I was struggling with some pretty tough stuff and I didn't know what to do with it all. God told me to give it to him because he would take care of it all.

One cool thing that happned at Youth Together was on the Saturday the camp went on a walk around the camp and then had a camp fire. It was so beautiful because I felt like I was alone with God and that no one was around me. We walked in slience and that was great. Before when went on the walk we watched a moive about these that were taken from there home and had to fend for themselves. Seeing this movie I wanted tocry so bad. I felt the pain they were going through and it made me brake down. This was the reason we went on the walk, because in Vancouver that night there were people walking for the same reason. God was there with us all that night. No one talked the whole tie we were walking. Then on Sunday morining we did an offering for all the children in Afraica. WE were told to give all the money we had in our pockets and most of us did. That was something God was telling me to do. Give the money you have and don't worry I will take care of you. After giving the money I felt good because I was help somelse out. God wanted me to think of others and I did. That weekend I grow a stronger relationship with the Lord. I have seen a new way of worshipping God and I am going to do it.

God is good. He is awalys there when you need him. He is awalys there to hold you hand. He helps you out when you are introuble. What a great Father we have. Why won't we worship him all the time. I am going to try to make every day of my life be of him. Everything I do is going to be for him. I need God so much in my life. I don't know what I would do with out him in my life. He is everything to me.

Blessing

Youth Together 2006

Last weekend I was away at camp sunrise for a weekend called youht together. What a great weekend, besides the whole not getting enough sleep. I had only 4 hours of sleep, but hte thing is that I was not tried until the day we left. As soon as we got on the ferry I was so tried. Anyways the theme for Youth Together this year was REVOLUTION. This was a good weekend for because I was strugging with alot of things and I brought them up to camp with me. On the first night we did worship and I love to worship God. So when we were worshipping I was not really feeling like I wanted to worship God and I didn't know why. I spent so time in prayer with the Lord during worship and he was revailing stuff to me. I asked God why I was not feeling like I wanted to worship him and he told me that I am worshipping him through prayer. I have been strugging with worshipping the Lord for awhile because things have been going on in my life and I couldn't find the time to be with the Lord. Ss God was telling me alot of things and I was crying as he was taking to me. God kept saying I love you, I love you, you are my child and I will not level you a lone. The whole weekend was about REVOLUTION and if you can see the route word is Love. God wants me to love others no matter what they have done to me. This weekend I was expecting to get anything out of it because I was there for the youth but I got lost out of the weekend. I had the chance to see what worship really looks like. Over the weekend God revailed to me what I was doing wrong because I asked him what is my worship suppose to look like. God told me and I started to break down, I was crying so hard because I wanted my worship to be the wya God wanted ti to be. At Youth Together I felt so broken inside that I din't know what was going on and God showed me why I was so broken.

God told me that I need to look to him for confort and help. That he wants to guide me in walk and not see me go off the wrong path. For awhile I was not living for God, it was all about what I wanted and not what God wanted.God told me to keep praying and worshipping him because has something specail for me. He wants me to keep feeling broken because when I feel broken that is when God is doing his work in me. God ahs been walking me thorugh some stuff from my past that I don't want to have to walk thorugh because it hurts me and I don't think I can handle the hurt again. God has something big for me and I just need to keep praying for his help.

As I write all this I am thinking about what we talked about in this cell group that I go on Wednesday nights. We talked about persevance and not giving up because God is not asnwering our prays rightway. God has his onw timing for asnwered prays and we just have to wait. The more we persever the more our faith increaes. I want my faith to increaes. I want to believe that God is going to take care of everything that is going on in my life rightnow. God is great.

Blessing