New Job

This week I started a new job and I am so happy because I get to work with kids. I love it so much I not only get to work with them I get to play with them and chat with them. Yesterday I was at work I meet this one girl that I love so much. She said to me that I wa a cool teacher that made me almost cry because I have been going through so tough stuff and just being able the kids has help me a little. The kids bring so much out of me. I have had the best three days of my life. I couldn't have asked for a better job. I love kids and I love working with them.

On wednesday night at cell group we got to talking and I had reveiled something that I was so afarid to talk about because I though I was going to be judge. It was a different night for. I was in tears by the middle of the night and could not stop crying. Rightnow I am walking through some stuff with God and I am felling so weak. God is good because I was able to share that stuff and the cell group praied for me. I had a friend come up to me and say something that was encouraging. I really needed to hear that. I have been looking at my life and seeing were I am messing up and I can't figure it out. Everything I am doing in my life is wrong and I can't stop what I am doing.

Well I don't much to say rightnow. I am still walking through this with God. I know that some day I figure it all out. I mean that I will figure my life out .

New Doors Opening

Today was a very stressful day at work because today was the day I was going to quit my job. The one I have been working at for two years. Hear is a good store to tell you. About a month ago or so I was not liking my job. It was getting to much for me and I had asked God what I was suppose to do about the job, because God was the one who provide me with this job. So has I was praying to God he keep telling me that it was time and I didn't understand what he was trying to tell, so I asked him and all he said was it is time. I said to God I don't understand what you mean by this and then he finally told me. He said that it is time for you to quit your job and I was like what I can't. I keep telling God that I couldn't because then I was not going to be able to support myself. I needed to feed myself and put a roof over my head and you know what God told me. He said do you trust me and I was like yes I do and he said so if you trust me why can't you do this. I am going to provide for you. I am going to help you out. I am going to be there for you. I told God that I was afraid that I was not going to be able to take care of myself and he said that is what I am going to do. I am going to take care of you. I will be there for you. God told me to trust him for he is there for me and that is all I needed to hear. So today I quit my job. The great thing about this is that God provided me with a even better job one that I love to do. I start tomorrow and the pay is even better. I can't wait. God is so great he does provide and I have learn't to trust him through this all.

God has opened new doors for and I can't wait to see what eles he has for me. This job is anew opporutatie for me. I know that with this job I am going to be able to grow closer to God and be able to spake about to others. I am going to be able to show the little kids who God is and what he wants to do for them.

I am so excited to start this new job. Praise the Lord for he is good and his love endures forever.
God Bless

The Art of Worship

This morning at church Pastor Karyn Baker spoke about the Art of Worship. She talked about many ways that can considered art of worship. I am not sure I get this whole worship stuff. Karyn spoke about when we worship that it comes from the heart and the mind. That is so true in so many ways. For me this message was hard to hear because I am struggling with worship and it looks like for me. Worship is so many things and can be done in so many ways. My question is what do you think the Art of Worship looks like to you. Worship is so hard to do, because sometimes when I worship it not always coming from the heart. Sometimes it coming from my mouth but I don't always mean what is coming from my mouth. So at the evening service which is at Cariboo on Sunday. The time I was worshipping God I was crying like a baby. My eyes were watery that I couldn't even see the words. I went down to the altar that night to have some time with the Lord and again I cried so. There are reasons for this and that is because I have been really looking at my life and what I have been doing wrong. Kind of like what Karyn spoke about in the morning to look at your life and see were you need to ask God for help. So when I was down at the altar I asked God to forgive me for all the things I have beening wrong in my life. Some of the things that I have done has made me not want to hear my solider uniform because I broke some of the rules and I need for God to frogive me for that. Rightnow I am walking throuhg some tuff stuff with God and it is really hurting me to walk through all that again. I have earsed it from my mind and now God wants to bring it up again because it is what is holding me from him. God has been doing alot of stuff in my life and I am so greatful for that.

God is so good.
God Bless

Old School Worship

Last night I went to cariboo temple and the worship had the night off because of the holiday. Michael Collins had the whole night planned there was musical worship in the sense of old school tunes. It was very old school but up beat. It was alot of fun. There was alot of jumping up down and clapping off beat, but it was very interesting.This was one fun night to worship God in this way. It was an early night but alot of fun. I really think that this was a great way to worship God. So much laughter and excitmint. The preach was great. We talked about Isisah 58. The kind of serving God wants us to do. This is the way we can worship God. It talks about the way God wants us to serve him. The songs were so cool. It felt like we were in a Sunday Morning Services which I really liked. Everyone was really into it and I liked it. What a great way to start the week. Praise the Lord.