What Is Worship

For the last couple of weeks we have been learning about worship. Karyn Baker has been talking about worship. It has been interesting and confusing for me because right now I am struggling with knowing how to worship God, what worship is and what it looks like from our side. I am not sure that I am worshipping God the way I should be because I don't really know what that looks like for me. I had asked a question to Karyn and she gave me a really good answer but I am still not sure I am worshipping the right way. Worship can means so many different things. Karyn had given me a couple of things that worship is, because it is not always about Thanks You or Praise You, but about trust, surrender, and honouring. These are very hard for me because I have been hurt in my past I am afraid to trust anyone even God. I don't even think I can surrender to God because then I just tend to take back what I gave to God. Worship is so many things I know that, I just don't know how to do it.
Hears an example of something that happened this past week. I was away at camp serving God well that is what I thought. By the second day of being there I was like God why did you give me this job I hate it so much. I was not happy serving God because I was not having a good time. I wasn't listening to what God wanted to say to me because I wanted it to be all about me and not about what he wanted. I wanted it to go my way but that didn't happen I was being selfish and I finally figured that out one when I got sick. I had spent a day and half in bed. All I could hear was God saying shut up and listen to me. That is when I realized it is not about me at all. It is all about God and what he wants for us. God just wants what is best for us. So it took me being sick and having to miss a few shifts to see what I was doing. I was being selfish and that has been happening alot lately. I have been wanting evereything to go my way.
God please help me to see where I have gone wrong in my life and help me to see that is not about what I want but about what you want because I want to live for you. Help me to worship you. Iwant to worship you with everything I have to offer.
Blessing To You All