Being Worshipper/ Doing Worship

This has been something that has been running through my head for last couple of weeks. At the New West Church Pastor Karyn Baker has been talking alot about what it looks like to be worshippers. This is something that has hit me so hard because I don't know what it looks like to be a worshipper. I have been doing alot looking for who I am and what God wants me to do. I don't if I am really worshipping God or not. Sometimes I think I am but then I tend to fall away from him. Why is it when you get so close to God that you tend to fall futher away from him?I am looking for that answer because that is what has been happening to me. I am trying to worship God through all the tuff stuff going on but I am getting tried. Maybe that is why I am falling away from God because I don't want to deal with all the stuff going in my life. I sometimes want to run away form all of it but I know deep down in side of me that, that is not what God wants me to do. This whole worship stuff is so hard for me. I have been struggling with it for the past two and half weeks and I still don't know why.

Back to what Pastor Karyn has been talking about. She has been talking about us being worshippers and not doing worship. I am not sure what that look likes for rightnow. I am looking for the answers. I don't know why we can't do both be worshipper and do worship. Aren't they both worshipping God and that is what he wants right. For us to worship him in everything that we do. Why is bad to do worship? I am not sure I understand why we can't do both. What does being a worshipper look like? What does doing worship look like?I am not sure that I understand what it is to be a worshipper. I am still struggling with being the worshipper that God wants me to be. Not that I know what that looks like to me. This whole preac on worship has been something that has hit me pretty hard. I guess God is conviting me for not being a worshipper.

Well that is all I have to saw for how about this topic. I am going to pray more about it and see what God is going to tell me.

God Bless

Long Week

This week has been very long because I have been doing alot. I got back form camp last week which was pretty cool to have a week off of work. Anyways there has been so much going on rightnow. I have been working alot this week which is good because I need the money. Ihave been going out long hours of the night which has not help me at all. I have been so tired that I have not been able to focus much. I have to say that I have not sleep much in the last two weeks. If you know me that is bad because I get really sick and then I can't go to work or hang with my friends.

In the last couple of weeks there has been alot of talk about worship at the New West Service which is good because in January we all took a covanit to worship God 24/7 but it has been hard to do. Pastor Karyn Baker has been talking to us about worship and what it looks like to be worshippers instead of doing worship. This has been something that has been running in my head for the past coulpe of week. That we should be worshipping not just doing worship. I am not sure that there is anything wrong with doing worship. Alot about what we have been talking about is being interminat with God. Spending one on one time with Him because that is the Key to our relationship with him, is to be connect with him. We should be worshipping God all the time in every thing that we do. If you have not met Jesus and is looking to met him, he is a pretty great guy. All you have to do is ask him into your life. I know for me when I accepted Christ into my life it was best decision I made.

God want to have a relationship with you. Ask him into your life and start you life new.

Blessing to you all.

Knee Drill

Last night was a great night I got to see alot of the War College students. It was cool to see them alot of them have changed. Anyways last nigth was the kick off to there graduation. It was crazy and very powerful night. The service went late which was cool. Normally, the service goes till 8:30 but last night it went on for a long time. We didn't leave untill 10:00pm. There was alot of worshipping God and praying for each other. I would have to say that there was about 50 people there and it got really hot. There was alot of powerful things that happened last night. Joshua became a senior soldier and left his life in God's hands. That was great to be able to witness that. War college students also prayed over some of us. They blessed with so much. It has been great getting to know alot of them . What a blessing they have been to us. God has been working through them in the most magical ways. It was great getting to know some of them one on one in a new found friendship. Some of them are staying and some are going, but either way we'll see each other all in heaven. God has been so great blessing all of us with the war college students they have been there for some of us. I have been able to talk with one or two of them and I have had some good conversations with them. Getting to know has been a blessing.

Blessing

What Is Worship

For the last couple of weeks we have been learning about worship. Karyn Baker has been talking about worship. It has been interesting and confusing for me because right now I am struggling with knowing how to worship God, what worship is and what it looks like from our side. I am not sure that I am worshipping God the way I should be because I don't really know what that looks like for me. I had asked a question to Karyn and she gave me a really good answer but I am still not sure I am worshipping the right way. Worship can means so many different things. Karyn had given me a couple of things that worship is, because it is not always about Thanks You or Praise You, but about trust, surrender, and honouring. These are very hard for me because I have been hurt in my past I am afraid to trust anyone even God. I don't even think I can surrender to God because then I just tend to take back what I gave to God. Worship is so many things I know that, I just don't know how to do it.
Hears an example of something that happened this past week. I was away at camp serving God well that is what I thought. By the second day of being there I was like God why did you give me this job I hate it so much. I was not happy serving God because I was not having a good time. I wasn't listening to what God wanted to say to me because I wanted it to be all about me and not about what he wanted. I wanted it to go my way but that didn't happen I was being selfish and I finally figured that out one when I got sick. I had spent a day and half in bed. All I could hear was God saying shut up and listen to me. That is when I realized it is not about me at all. It is all about God and what he wants for us. God just wants what is best for us. So it took me being sick and having to miss a few shifts to see what I was doing. I was being selfish and that has been happening alot lately. I have been wanting evereything to go my way.
God please help me to see where I have gone wrong in my life and help me to see that is not about what I want but about what you want because I want to live for you. Help me to worship you. Iwant to worship you with everything I have to offer.
Blessing To You All

Turning our focus to God

On Thursday night my freinds and I went down town to knee drill which is a worship service. On the downtown east side(not a safe area by the way). Some guy told us that he was 2 months pergant. It was pretty weird because guys can't get pergant. By anyways other then that is was a good night. It was all about turning our eyes to God and putting all the things that are holding us from away and giving them to God. There was alot of dancing that and "it isn't worship untill you sweat". Which gets pretty gross and then we go and hug everyone we can find. So it is like passing on our sweat to others in love. By saying that, its like hugging people (without sweat!) and transfering God onto them by showing them we love them. The night was full of God and sweat which is pretty good because it shows that we were really into worshiping God. We broke off into groups there was about five of them. One was Jesus is worthy of worship, another was called Jesus the Shepard, Jesus the lover, unfortunatlyI can't remeber the rest but hopeful someone who redas this blog that was there will remember. It was a powerful night. We had to say bye to the battle school kids. We took them pray surfing (robyns define: its like crowd surfing at a rock concert except no screaming just hardcore prayers).Some of them were scared to get up there. Like Jordan who was wearing a skirt and had to be on a chair. Brent White got up there and screamed so loud. Eddy was freaked out, and Chris was VERY ticklish (not a good thing by the way!). To sum it all up the night was about turing to God and giving him verything. At the end we all started dancing and it was great because it didn't matter what we look liked it was all out of fun for the Lord.

Well Blessing to you all

Selfish Prayes

This question has been something running through my head and I can't find the answer to it. My question is, is a such thing as Selfish Prayes because I am not sure. Sometimes I think when I am praying that I am praying for selfish things and that is way God don't answer them. Am I wrong about selfish prayes. I don't even know if there a such thing as Selfish Prayes. The last couple of weeks the cell group I attend has been reading this book called The Beginnger Guide to Intercession. It has really struk me to know that I have not been praying for what God wants but for what I want so that is why I ask the question about selfish prayes. This book is so good I have not been able to put it down since I have gotten it. God is revelaing so much to me.Well that is all I have to say for now.

Blessing to you all

What does God mean to you. If you had to decribe him in one word

For me if I had to decibe God in one word it would be life. God is life and there many reasons to why I say this. The reason God is life is because God saved me form drug and acholi addictions about 5 years ago. If it wants for God giving me life I don't think I would be alive today. I gave my life to Christ about 2 years ago. I have many times asked God into my life but this time I really meant it. Even though I gave my life to Christ it wasn't easy. There were alot of ups and downs, but they all happened for a reason and that is because wants to sterngthen us. He wants to see who strong our faith is. God means the word to me. In this last year I have recommited my life to Christ. I became a Soilder of the Salvation Army which something I never though I would have done. I have been involved in Ministies for The Lord. I am a new different person and I am happy with who God has made me. I own my life to God because he saved me from living a life of death. It almost was and it is scary.

LIFE- Live it full everyday.
Live your lives to fullest you can. Live your life the way God wants you to. He has made us all different for a reason and that is every encouraging.
GOD IS LIFE.
God is my life and that is what God means to me.

Blessing to you all

Praise The Lord

The Lord is Almighty
The Lord is Holy
The Lord is Great
The Lord is the king
The Lord is loving
The Lord is caring
The Lord is Amazing
The Lord is powerful
The Lord is kind
The Lord is our Father in Heaven and on Earth
The Lord is our strength
The Lord is our healer
The Lord is our life
The Lord is our provider
The Lord is our Refuge
The Lord is our Groom
The Lord is our Friend
The Lord is everything
The Lord answers prayers
The Lord guides us
The Lord helps us
The Lord listen to us
The Lord is Faithful
The Lord is honest
The Lord of trust
The Lord of peace
The Lord of light
The Lord of my heart
The Lord of praises
The Lord of all

Well I have been having a better week and it is because of the Lord. He is so great to us. He loves us so much. He takes care of us. He provides for us. I have needed the Lord so much and he has been there for me. Even thouhgt I am a sinner he is still there taking care of me. What a great Father we have. Even when we mess up he is still there and that is great. This weekend was a hard one because I finally told my mom that I was moving out. She didn't take it to well, but that is something she has to deal with. I told her that it is time for me to move out. I prayed alot about this dission before I told my mom and he told me that it is time to move out. I am so happy because now I am going to be able to be more indepent. I will be able to focus on God and give him my all. God is worthy of all praise and that is what I want to give him, is all my praises.

On Sunday night at The Hill, it was a really great night to worship the Lord. I felt so much joy, even though I was doing power point. There were time when I closed my eyes and worshiped God. I even raised my hands a few times. I felt like there was no one else around. That it was only Jesus and me. It was the best felling ever. I have never experince anything like this before. God was really trying to speak to me. I was able to lift my praises to The Lord with no one bothering me. It was so nice to be alone with the Lord. I guess that is what it fells like to have intimacy with the Lord. I have been look for that intimacy with the Lord for a long time and I finally found it. The Lord is so good to us. The has been providing for me in ways I never though I would be able to. He is going to provide me with a place to live. With food to eat. What a great Father. He truly wants to take care of us. I am going to let him take care of me because he is my Father.

Blessing to you all