FULLNESS

This past weekend I attened a confernce called "Fullness". It was a weekend of fasting and focusing on the Lord. I have never gone because the confernce has always been to far for me to go. So i was able to.

Well before I decieded to go to Fullness I was praying a lot because that week I was really sick and was not sure if I wanted to go but I prayed about it and God told me that he wanted me to go. So I was like 0kay Lord what ever you want so I went and I have to tell you that I made the right descion, because I was able to reconext with the Lord. I had been walking away form the Lord for awhile and I needed to find him again and I did. The Lord revealed himself to me in a way that I have never exceperinces before. I felt like crying out to the Lord because I really needed him and then there he was. I was just not looking for him in the right place. So now I am going to talk about Fullness and what the Lord spoke to me about.

Okay on Saturday we had a time of solutiude with is spending time listening to Lord and hearing what he has to say. So I spent about a hour and a half listening to the LOrd. WE were to choose a place to go and reflect on the Lord so I chosse to go to the garden and it was so beautiful beacuse it was so quite and I really hard the Lord spaeking to me for what felt like the first time. I just wanted to cry out to the Lord and I did a little bit. We were aslo told to write down thing that we want to forget and things we wanted to remember. My list of the things I wanted to forget was not that long but my list of the things I wanted to remember was so long because the Lord keep speaking to me. As I was lieing by the garden the Lord gave me a picture. The picture was of a garden. I was walking along and I came to this Garden and I wanted to enter but it was locked and I couldnt find the key then I saw a man walking by and asked him how do I get into the Garden and he said that I needed a key. So then I asked him were is the key and he said that I have the key and that I was not allowed to have it, so I asked him why and he said because I have not giving myself completely over to God. I have not asecpted the Fullness of the Lord. The man said that, that was the only wya that I was going to be able to enter the Garden. At that moment I didnt know what to do so then I prayed and asked the Lord to come and fill me with the Fullness of him, and then I asked in what area do I need the fullness and he said The Fullness of healing. Then I asked him to heal me fully because I have been holding on to something that the Lord has been wanting to take away from. me. The more I reflected on the Lord in front of the Garden the more the Lord spoke to me. Then the Lord gave me a scripture and the scripture is the one about The Locked Garden in Song of Solomon.
"A garden locked is my sister, my bride, A rock garden locked, a spring sealed up.
Your shoots are an orchard of pomegranates with choice fruits, henna with nard plants,
Nard and saffron, calamus and cinnamon, with all the trees of frankincense, myrr and aloes, along with all the finest spices. You are a garden spring, Awell of fresh water, and
streams flowing from Lebanon." "Awake, O north wind, and come, wind of the south;
Make my garden breathe out fragrance, lets its spices be wafted aboard. May my
beloved come into his garden and eat its choice fruits!"
SONG OF SOLOMON 4:12-16

Another way that the Lord put that vision was it is like trying to enter into the heart of the Lord but the only way to do that is to accept him fully. To live out his word, to live for him and him. Every since then I have been reading my Bible more and God is revealing so much to me. I have almost gone through the whole New Testament.

Fullness was a good weekend. The fasting part was hard becasue there temptations there for me but I prayed and asked the Lord to help me to foucs on him. So I did and I became hunger for his word.

Lord I pray that the fullness fo you would be enough for me and that I would accept your healing for me. Also that I would live by your word. Amen