A New Beginning

This weekend God really opened my eyes to what he was putting infront of me. I have decieded to change my life around. I am going to live for God. I am going to get more invovled in the chruch. I have decided to take the Solider class at New West Chruch. I really believe that's the right move for me. I want to only live for God. I have been really into memorizing Isaiah 58 because it has been bringing me closer to God. Even though I still don't really get what it means or why God really wants me to keep on memroizing this Scripture. I guess God is trying to tell me something I just don't know what. I will found out I just need to keep praying for God reveal to me the meaning.
On Saturday I put together a cell group at my house and this weekend we atlked about worship. Which is very intertesting because at the evening srvice that is what we talked about. When I hear the word worship sometimes I think of musical worship but there is more to worship then music. I am not sure what it is but I am going to do somemore studying up on it so I can apply my life to worship.The word worship can mean so much to people. I want worship to be the main thing in my life. I just don't want it to happen when I am at chruch or youth but I want ti to be something I do through out my days. When I am at work at home or hanging with my freinds.
I have done alot of searching for my life and I think I have found what God wants of me. It has taken along time. I was at a point in my life were I was ready to give up on every thing I had believed because I didn't think I was going to get through all this. I finally realized that the answer were always there I just wasn't looking for them. God has been so great in standing by me when I was sinning againt him. I have asked God his forgiveness and he wants to give it to me.
I am redy to step out and win the world for Jesus. I have this desire in my heart and want to live it out. God ha blessed me so much and I am so greatful for that.
God Bless you

Words From God

This weekend I spent sometime in the pray room. I really needed that time with God. I was able to spend time listening to God and speaking to him. He revealed alot to me. I really didn't know what to say to all the stuff he was telling me. I think the best thing for me is to do what he wants so I can please him. Well hear is what he told me to do.
Go out an invite others in the New West Community to Church
Be more involved in Church activtes
Take on leadership roles
Speak only words of encouragements
That is some pretty cool things. I can't wait to do all that stuff . I can't to step out and live for Christ the way he wants me too.Being in the pray room really got me thinking of my life and what I have been doing wrong with it.
God showed me a clear picture of that and I don't want to live like that anymore.Spending time in pray can really bring you closer to God. It's great to feel God. To know athat he is alway there for you.For me I have been struggling with wanting to be close to God. There has been alot of temptations that I have been falling into.

On Friday night I went to youth down at the Hill. It's a pretty great place I feel very welcomed there. Well when it was time for worship we all went up stairs. We were asked some questions. For me it took some time to answer them because I have been struggling with God and the relationship. The questions were.
What do you know about God?
What do you believe about God?
What happens when we die?
Thoes are some pretty interting questions. I have to say I really couln'd answer them. I don't know if I know how to answer them. I did answer them but then I went back and realized that I was not answer them from my heart . I was just putting what I wanted to say. I think that in the next couple of days I might be able to look back at them and really answer them.I will have to pray before I answer them.

Thoughts

In the last couple oe weeks I have been working on mermoizing a scripture for Karyn so I could go to RAW. I find that I sometimes mermiozes scriptures and I don't know what they mean to me. I know that God wants to speak tome through them. The Scripture I have been mermoizing is ISAIAH 58.
I have only gotten two and half verves down. It is hard to do this. The only thing that is helping is knowing that I am doing it for God because it pleaes God and that is what I want to do.
Scriptures are hard to look at if you don't understand the meaning to them.
The only thing to do is to study them and get the meaning.
I really struggle with that alot and that is because I don't really know the Bibles is talking about
God Bless Those Who Read This

What Is Love

Well Love that's a commons word that has been used for along time.
Myself for along time was not able to say that I loved them because I didn't truly mean it so I was careful with that word. On Tuesday night at Refuge Karyn spoke about love and it really spoke to me. There's a scripture that we spoke about and that was 1Corinthians13 1-13.
What is Love
Love is patient
Love is kind
Love always protects
Love always trusts
Love always hopes
Love always persevered
Love never fails
Love does not envy
It does not boast
It is not proud
It is not rude
It is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered
It keeps no records of wrongs
Love does not delight in evil
But rejoices with the truth
It always protects
Always trusts
Love never fails

In verse 13 it says now these three remain: faith, hope, and love.
This topic on love has been something that I have been having troubles with because I don't know if I really do love the people I say I do. It is hard to tell if you truly love them or not. For me it is hard to love people when they have done something to me. Then all I want is to hurt them back. I have been praying a lot for God to help me to love. The key to love is to accept the love that God has for you. I think of it has looking at what God did for my sins. He sent his son to die for my sins. I still can't believe that after every thing I have done he still forgives me. I am going stay up on this love stuff so I can love people thee way I am suppose to.